Currently 'enjoying' my internship life, working at office with 9-5 shift. So far so good for me.. Had learn lots of things and I hope to be more competent, more independent, learn to put down and also look on things with more open minded. I hope to be a better person, with a better attitude. I want to be success! I want those people who are looking down on me to be regret!
Seriously i'm trying my best to play the role in my life of their daughter, younger sister, his girlfriend, their sisters, friends and myself. I wish that I can do it. I want to prove to myself that I was capable of things. But I know no matter how good I am, or how I tried my best to be good to them, they are still the same. Everything is useless.This is life,it won't be like what we want. I truly understood that the stronger the person, the easier will get hurt. Reason is simple, just because you are strong! They don't give a fuck of hurting hurt you, they don't care. They will think that it doesn't matter to hurt you since you are strong, you can get through of it easily.
I know you're looking down on me and my families. Yes! It's you! The way how we had been treated, I can see it and also feel it. I will have the power to change this, one day. This situation will not be long lasting.
Anyway, thanks for looking down on me. It has created
a motivation for me. Without this, I’m nothing. Never mind just continue your treating on me. One day, I will let you regret, i will let your knees down and begged me!
